Toni Newman: Don’t Try to “Cure” My Trans Identity!
By: Toni Newman
Author Kevin Johnson aka Kevin Muhammad has written two books 1) Psychological Warfare and 2) Death of a Bootyman. He writes about suicide, prison, drugs and his involvement with transgender people and gay sexually. He now claims he is cured from his bisexuality and has only ever been attracted to women sexually. His Journey goes from bisexualty to complete heterosexuality. (His video “Can you be cured from homosexuality?” is featured below.)
I do not believe homosexuality or transgenderism is a disease and I personally do not believe homosexuality is “curable.” But Mr. Johnson is very open about his past and his past homosexual encounters and I respect that very much. Most African-American males who are on the down-low refuse to acknowledge their bisexual encounters and truth about their gay past. They sneak around and lie to their wives and girlfriends about their hidden sexual activities and even when exposed will lie to the very end.
Do people really believe homosexuality and bisexuality are sexual addictions and curable? that is the question.
Below is an account of the discussion between (myself, TN) and Mr. Johnson (KJ) about the video and his stance:
TN: Kevin, I saw your stuff on no longer being homosexual, meaning you no longer have those sexual desires. I find it hard to believe that you have cured desires you have had for years. My next question is how? Do you not desire same sex anymore at all?
KJ: Well, Toni, first of all I’d like to thank you for the opportunity to address this issue! When it comes to behavioral science, if I repeatedly suffered the same or similar consequences from deviating into gay sex, eventually I grew tired of the regret which gave me the discipline to pull myself out of it. As a teenager, I made decisions based on pleasure without considering consequences, and I kept up that outlook even in my late ’20s, up until I attempted suicide and now live with a scar on my neck to remind me! There are numerous ways I can explain how I cured myself from the desires of gay sex, but to put it in plain words, it was the “Release Therapy” (WG quotes) that really helped me. When I wrote my history, I cast it out of me into the words that became Psychological War (sic). And for the purpose of being clear, I was never attracted to the same sex; my sexual preference has always been women, however I didn’t let being in prison stop me from having a sex life (unfortunately). So, when it is all said and done, Toni, the consequences of being bi-sexual or homosexual caused me to lose interest in that. Also being that I have 2 daughters that will know my history some day, I don’t want to be a failure in their eyes. I want them to know me as a real man, not a boy who couldn’t control his penis. Sexual addiction is the root of this problem we are addressing.
TN: Kevin I can appreciate your honesty about your homosexuality, or rather your bisexuality, but I disagree that bisexuality or homosexuality is a sexual addiction. Everyone has their own story and I appreciate your story about how you were always attracted to women and your experiences with transgender people and men came from a negative place. But speaking for myself, I was never attracted to women sexually in any manner and I was never happy in my male body. But where we totally disagree is that Homosexuality is curable as if it is a disease of some type. I have attended several groups and organizations where they said they had a cure to stop homosexuality and turn them into heterosexuals and most, not all of their members, were lying to themselves and still actively pursuing same sex experiences. So I accept your word as a African-American man that you are no longer interested in bisexual encounters but the problem I had was with the word cured. I do not believe homosexuality is a sin, a disease, or demonically possessed. So I wish you well on your journey and hope your statements are factual and truthful.
About the Author
Wild Gender is an online magazine and creative hub born out of gratitude for the gift of full expression. We are dedicated to creative practices that celebrate gender fluidity, identity and expression. Wild Gender prioritizes visual art, creative writing, and journalistic work by trans/gender-variant individuals who have never before been published in a public venue. Run entirely by volunteers,we are always in search of writers, thinkers, and creators hoping to participate in our growing community.
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