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Published on June 14th, 2013 | by Aimee Herman

NSFW Trans Erotica: “I’m Going to Look You Up and Down”

I’m looking at you. I’m staring at your slick-back, pierced ears, heavy back pocket. I notice your tattoos and greased up fingers and calluses and that stance. I’ve got some of that too, but you are looking past me.

What gets your attention? I’m not wearing any underwear. OK, that’s a lie but are you listening? I’ve got enough toys in my sock drawer to open up my own store. All you need to do is bring the batteries.

Can you hear me?

I get lost very easily, so I prefer not choosing strict directions like top or bottom. I switch and remain longer in places you may not be used to. Are you looking at me now? Forget about my pronoun. I have breasts but they can go away for the night. My cunt is a canvas of schizophrenic genders. If you give me some time, we can watch it turn into various forms of play.

We can both put on make-up or we can both bind or we can both scatter our limbs as far as they can reach and call them something else. What hasn’t been done before has already been done but let’s do that again. I’m going to look you up and down now and this is the moment you are supposed to translate that as: I’m interested.

Maybe I don’t look queer enough for you but I’ve got an atlas with the paths you can travel on my body–you just need to unfold. So unfold me. I see that you are packing. I want to feel what it feels like to carry multiple genders between your legs. I want you to ask me about the poems hidden inside my scars. I can rub my histories into you like grass stains on denim. I may injure your ability to make proper decisions. Call out sick for tomorrow.

Do you have health insurance?

This is going to include heavy bruising, bite marks, erotic strangulation and leather unless you’re vegan, then we can replace skinned animal with ropes and nude. Are you paying attention to this? When I lick my lips, I am preparing my mouth to stretch over you. My tongue is a muscle and I want to use your body as my gym membership.

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About the Author

Aimee Herman

Aimee Herman is a queer performance artist and poet looking to disembowel the architecture of gender, bodies and sexual grievances. Read her full length book of poems, to go without blinking (BlazeVOX books) and in the anthology, Troubling the Line: Trans and Genderqueer Poetry and Poetics (Nightboat books). Find her wrapped in caution tape in Brooklyn or at aimeeherman.wordpress.com



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